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Bryan,
Firstly, I do not have a clue of what you are talking about (the events that
you stated), mind you I do not follow castle much, if at all.
But that is not why I am replying. I saw the subject of your post and found it
very disturbing. I then read your post and see you are frustrated and hurt.
Both of which seem to be common place here online.
I hope you are able to forgive those who hurt you. I have gotten to know some
of them over the past few years and I have to say, what you have seen is not
characteristic of them. Please understand that what you saw may not have been
what has happened. Yes, I agree that the events might of happened but they may
not have happened for the reasons that you say.
Let's take Shiri for instance. Lately she has been distracted by a lot of
things. You think it might be Brickfest, but from what I know that was a minor
concern. Way above that on the list is the fact that in a month or so, she is
moving back to Israel from her current home in Boston. And she has had to
endure the frustration of having her boyfriend on the other side of the country
for the last while but now it will be the other side of the world. Along with
that she is going to have to say good-bye to the life she has made for herself
in the States. So I have noticed that since Chris was able to be with her she
has hardly posted. LUGNET is not really the *most* important thing to her. Then
again it really isn't for any of us.
Now back to the title. I here your frustration. I have posted many time to
LUGNET and felt hurt because I thought people were ignoring me. The ironic
thing is that I know that I am guilty of not replying to people when I know it
could have helped make them feel acknowledged and accepted.
LUGNET has grown over the last while and as a result is that everyone cannot
know everyone. What you need to do is make some *real* friendships and go from
there. And above all, *DO NOT* feel you are second class to anyone. Anthony let
you down because you set him up above you. I am not saying you are better than
anyone, but that you are a peer.
I won't going to defend those who hurt you nor will I condemn them. Neither
will I do the same to you. I just want you to know that you do have a right to
feel the way you do but you have a responsibility to try to prevent others
from feeling the same.
I hope your future here is better and that you are able to see past our faults,
because there are so many you may be blinded.
Jude
FUT lugnet.people because we all have a lesson in this
In lugnet.castle.org, Bryan Buckley writes:
> That about sums up how I feel. With all this Wanderer stuff going around
> my review , of course I was going to see bad posts from members. I saw many.
> Although I was glad that a few people did defend , James Ng , I barely know
> him , but with people saying these bad things about me he calls me a good
> guy. Andrew Weiner tells me to ignore everyone over it and merely says they
> are only temporarialy angry with me. He said some other things , but I won't
> say them , he doesn't deserve to be thrown out of CW like I was. Richard
> Marchetti defended me for some time , until Sava's post. I thoguth he was my
> friend. I thought Stembel was too , but after he made that post about me , I
> don't know anymore , we weren't that close of friends anyways.
> I really thought Sava was my friend. I was the biggest fan of his
> stories , in my first post I called him a legend of Castle. He was my icon ,
> my role model , I strived to be like him , but not only was he a legend in
> my eyes he was a good friend. I talked alot to him over AIM , and that was
> basically how our friendship developed. He is right. I do hold a grudge
> against Dori , I have had a grudge for a long time.
> The day I joined Castle World I was ecstatic , I was part of a speical
> group , Castle's finest. Stembel had convinced me to do so. I happily posted
> to this newsgroup of my join , expecting my new bretheren to welcome me with
> open arms. No such thing. Everyone was to busy with business of the July
> Gathering. In an im with Anthony , I told him I was angry noone had welcomed
> me , they were too busy discussing a meeting that would be months away. Sava
> told me that Shiri would have welcomed me , she always is the first to
> welcome new members , but she must be too busy with the gathering. Noone
> can be too busy too take a few minutes a write a welcome post to the new
> guy. I felt a underdog. The song "Creep" by Radiohead comes to mind how I
> felt then.
> The only way for me to be noticed is that I rant , and finally Shiri
> does respond , but what does she do? She gives me some constructive
> criticism. Imagine how angry I felt. The girl everyone said was so kind and
> sweet gives the new guy constructive criticism about his site.
> And now Sava says these cruel things about me. I trusted him to keep
> these thigns secret , but he didn't. I trusted you Anthony J. Sava The Third
> , and you let me down. YOU LET ME DOWN!! AND YOU SAID SUCH CRUEL THINGS
> ABOUT ME!
> You said to feel no pity for me , your biggest fan. Feel no pity for the boy
> who's been captivated with the tales of Ikros since he first discovered your
> website. Have no pity for the first person who signed his message board and
> in his first post ranked him a legend. When I read your post I wanted to
> scream. You said you didn't mean to offend but , when I got to " feel no
> pity for this boy" you had done more than harmed me , you had scarred me.
> I think the time is right for me to now go back to a corner and sulk.
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